krakadicts

scarface is in fact a good movie. i think it is going to be portrayed as the official "krakadicts" movie, heh. i'm glad i got to see it on the big screen for the first i had a chance to see it.

people that talk in theaters suck, i want to kill them. they talk, i yell "shut the fuck up," and they talk more for 5 minutes then stop talking for the rest of the movie. everyone else should try doing this before i get the chance to.

next time the choice comes up to go out to eat, i am going to choose well. i believe i did pretty good tonight. village in has some good pancakes, though i think i should have spent the extra 90 cents to get the omellette. our waitress, later found out to be anny, was nice. only had worked there a good 2 or 3 weeks, ended up tipping her aboot 5 bucks. the gentleman who i happened to go with to the movie and dinner brought to the attention that there was going to be a "dead prom" at tvi tomorrow (saturday evening), so while we were on the subject, abby comes over to check on us. and me being me i happen to ask her "do you want to go to the prom at tvi?" something like that at least. she ponders and at the end of the night ends up giving me her number and name.

i rule

WOOO FUCKING HOO, the casualties are comin' WOOOOO!

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10/20/03 - throw rag, the united
- launchpad, 7pm, $8

10/21/03 - the casualties, roger miret and the disasters
- launchpad, 7pm, $8

10/28/03 - cripple bastards
- the attic, 8pm, $4

11/03/03 - poison the well, deftones
- albuquerque convention center

11/05/03 - rise against, against me
- launchpad, 7pm, $10

11/12/03 - toxic narcotic, uk subs
- launchpad, $8 (NOT ALL AGES)

11/14/03 - modest mouse
- sunshine theater

11/23/03 - pretty girls make graves
- launchpad, 7pm, $8

12/01/03 - glasseater
- the attic

my reply to the email (the whole thing is going to be sent to both parties)

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hey dad,
mom forwarded me that message from your guys' conversation. i don't know, but it looked like she said she would help you out with all of the payments on greg's teeth and such. i din't see a reason for you to have brought up the jaguar and house stuff. by the way, i was just wondering now, why didn't you ever pay the child support in the past? too much alcohol to buy? oh, sorry that could get in the way.

i'll call greg tomorrow and tell him that i won't be flying out there, that....COOL....with ya? maybe i'll send him a ticket to come out here though since i miss him and all.


hey mom,
i would really appreciate it if you would stop sending these messages around. it's not my fault that dad did not pay child support on me and you still managed to live a very fulfilling life right? stop prying on him, he seems to try (from what all i know, which as we all know is very little). the money is NOT my problem, nor business. if you're willing to have a conversation about dad and money, how about you both trade numbers?

how much do you really make mother? how much was that jaguar of yours? how much was that house? how much does it cost to raise a child?

more importantly, WHY do you need the money from dad so bad? to prove a point, show that you are better. fuck the ego mother, you win, now stop trying to get as much money as you can ok, it's not worth it.

Saturday, went to a party
Today, hung out with a couple o' chicks from work, watched fear and loathing in las vegas, drove around randomly

Plus I have a very loving parental system going on here. I guess the plans for going to california are gonna be thrown out now. Fuck it, if he can't afford giving greg anything he needs because mom is prying all the money out of his hands for back child support...i hate home life.

And don't say that I have a great fucking life (which I know that I'm a spoiled as fuck brat with my own computer right here and a room and free food, blah blah blah, fuck it) and it's far better than a lot of other familys out there. personally, i don't care about the other family's, i care about mine, but obviously my family is in the shits.

mom - greedy money sucking, but very nice and loving, women who (i think) would love to see nothing better than to have dad die a cold and horrible death.
dad - non-paying whining, but still very caring and sincere and loving, man who would love for mom to stop caring about money and just try to get his life straight. but with the whole smoking and drinking and all that good stuff, i don't see how he can bitch and moan about money. if you can afford to raise a kid, buy cigarrette's, and alcohol, you have plenty of money. quit the shit and give mom some money for back-payed child support.

but in the end, i would just love to stop getting forwards from either parent that sounds anything like this:

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"Please forward any information about needs related to his broken jaw.  This may be covered by his medical insurance.

Donna

At 01:33 AM 9/26/2003 -0400, you wrote:

       Donna,

                    You should learn to lighten up a little........ they are a reputable dentist, what do you think I would send him to a hack?  Okay so they didn't call you back, they haven't called me either to tell me I need to pay so don't get your panties in a bunch.  Yes, Greg got his tooth fixed, although there may be a problem as a result of his broken jaw......she refereed us to an etodontist?.....so they can check him out further if he is showing signs of problems following the filling, so far no problem. So for now we are going to wait and see what happens......Thanks for calling and giving them the info, I heard you on the inserting machine while we were there so I know for sure they got the info......

             Now, since I'm writing this, what is this I hear about you getting a JAG?? You must really be hurting to be able to afford that and the house and everything else, so you have accomplished what you wanted to....what is left on your list of things to do.....keep me down for the rest of my life?  Why do you insist on doing this to me, you still don't understand what this is doing to me do you?  There is no way on earth that I can get a good job with this support on going, every time any employer looks further into who I am they throw out my application.  If you are able to afford a JAG and a $300 thousand dollar house then what the hell do you want from me???  Why can't you get over it and move on....I don't own a house,  I don't own a nice car, I don't have shit.....All I have is Greg, and he likes it here, but I wish I could give him more, Now he and Alex are making plans for Christmas vacation.......COOL......I can't even plan on going out to dinner let alone making plans for Christmas......Do you get any of this??????
                                Steve Cunningham"

My life is a boring shithole full of nothing to do besides sit around, work, and sometimes go to school. It's sad that whenever you have the most boring and easy classes that you actually look forward to going to each and every one of them. I need to make some friends and do some shit. Along with spend less money then I have been lately. I bought 30 bucks worth of patches last night and about 5 cd's (2 being 6.99, one for 10.99, the others fer normal cd price) since then, along with some polyester poster thing and 4 movies (3 being 5.99). This is what happens when you're bored as fucking hell.

So what to do, sit and hang out all by myself as usual? Walk around outside for a little while? Go to sleep? Maybe do some homework?

I'm really not in the mood to do shit except sleep, but don't want to sleep. Catch 22ish eh, booooored. My mom is giving me shit again for having a dirty bathroom and bedroom. Fuck it, I don't care about how dirty shit is, especially whenever there's a bag on my floor and a couple pairs of clothes. She has way to high of standards, it's my room, I like it this "dirty."

Bleh bleh, I just put up my new misfits poster thing, wun't sure where to put it, so it's on my roof next to my cat in the hat poster...looks pretty good. I need to get way more crap to fill up all this ugly white blank room on here. I want that printer, then I can print off some of my favorite comics and stuff. That would be nice.

Ooooooh, hooked up my speakers properly now, it sounds soooo much better now. That's a nice 30 minutes of non-boredom I guess.

Tryyyy all you want, nothing's getting solved FALSE HOPE!

/me is listening to...the unseen - false hope

The Unseen almost sound live...that was a good show, I hate 21+ shows. The Flametrick Subs, Epoxies, Toxic Narcotic, Uk Subs, and maybe even some bands that I haven't mentioned are all coming here, and they are ALLLLLLLL FUCKING 21+. I hate the world known as alcoholic shows.

Hm, I'm gonna go ahead and draw some band logo's on pieces of paper and probly put 'em up all over my room randomly. Yup, so I'll re-visit this in a little bit maybe.

Ahh the many wonders OF crazy nights and days inn my life.

So what exactly happened today? Woke up and went down to the bank to fix my debit card, and that worked. Then went to radioshack and got a cd to cassette car adapter thing since the one i have right now isn't really all that great.

Then I went to school and learned a bit about accounting and that we did the homework and that was REALLY easy. Easier than how I tried to do it about five minutes before the class started when I actually remberd that I had to do some homework. Then ate lunch which at first I didn't want to spend my money on so I bought a Sobe and then saw some guys with tacos and such so I ended up buying some taco salad thing. Waste of money is not fun.

/me is listening to...Darkest Hour - This Curse

Then I had math. Today was quiz day, so I came in expecting a quiz in the first 5 minutes. But no, this teacher has a differn't style that I appreciate a bit more. We went over all of the stuff from the previous week in a nice big review for a good hour and a half or so, then she sent us on break. I walked around the outside to go and get a soda.

Then on the way up the stairs I saw her (the girl I mentioned in the previous post that I talked to about her hair and the lizard, yeah) and I actually held a short conversation about our majors (hers being computer networking and mine being computer programming) and all that stuff. Her name is Marsha, first thing I thought was the Brady Bunch of course, heh. The next thing that really caught my attention was that she said she was 25 somehow. That was really shocking considering, well, she does not look 25 at all. So I'm thinking that the whole "asking Marsha out" plan has gone down the drains. What's the count now, 2 girls in one week that are not possible. Yup, and those were the two most attractive (physically and mentally) girls I've seen there. And you know, those two, they are very different girls, so I think I've got a very wide outlook on the whole "my type" kind of thing. There are a few cool ones up at Montoya (my other campus)so maybe I'll be checkin' that out.

Then after I talk to her for a while I go and grab a wild cherry pepsi and go back to class. Everyone has already started on the quiz as I walk in, so I set down my mp3 player, walk up to the teacher, grab a test, finish it and sit there. Then someone else asks if we hand it in or not and she said yeah and once you do you can leave. So I hand mine in and go home. Good times!

Work then comes and I go about an hour early so I get a couple of cd's like this one and this one as well. I ended up leaving them at work, stupidhead, so I have yet to listen to them.

Work sucks a lot more every day I go.

/me is listening to...999 - Subterfuge

Such as today, we start to close and Manuel pulls out the radio and starts playing some rap and keeps switching between that and spanish music. Then everyone starts giving me shit for trying to change the shitty ass music. Since they're all Mexican and shit they keep running up and yelling things like "VIVA MEXICO!" and "PINCHE ALEX JOTO POR VIDA!" Fucking idiots, then Manuel turns the crappy music as high as it goes and Anthony's givin' me shit fer fucking hating it and yelling out things like "FUCK MEXICO" and shit. So I go to my car, grab my headphones, and turn them on full blast. Now say what you will about the Sex Pistols, but when you are pissed off it's so much fun to listen to Anarchy In The UK.

"And I wanna be an anarchist
Get pissed
Destroy!"

Now that's what I call good chill out music compared to viva la mejico tweet tweet sucky music blah blah blah ay ha haaayyyy shit. Then I went to the gas station, got me a chocolate milk, and came home. Good night.

/me finished while listening to...Los Gatos Locos - El Locos

/me is listening to...Oxymoron - Wild And Dangerous

I am SO fucking sore right now. My arms, legs, and hips are bruised all over, my neck, shoulders, and knees are sore. In other words, the show rocked my ass so fucking hard.

Yesterday I went down to Hobby Lobby around 8, then Hobby Lobby to wait for Megan (because she was still closing at HL). Ended up reading some magazine on the coolest people or summ, then wandered around a little bit more looking at random cd's. Then I barely recognized this random guy and he came over and started talking to me. He's the guy I met at that gas station the other night (Tuesday) with Randy. So him and I talked about his various thoughts on nuclear war and money (how he thought it was worthless, yay). Megan came by around the beginning of the conversation, and after a few minutes of talking we left for the show. She drove. Got there just before The Unseen started, and I got a chance to wander around and see some people. Since it was the Dropkick Murphy's as the main band there were a lot of the preppy type of people there, bleh. Saw Rachel (whom I work with) and Jessica (who works with Megan at Hobby Lobby, and I met her at Megan's party), and Megan hung out with Jessica throughout the night.

We missed Throw Rag and the Disaster's, no big deal. I would have liked to have seen them both, but Throw Rag is coming to town in about a month so I might check 'em out then. I haven't listened to either band, and have only heard of them from this show, so I didn't mind missing them too much.

The Unseen got up to the stage and started playing and when you know the words to the songs it makes it that much better. "so this IS freeeeeDOM!" and "how 'bout this fer an answer, FUCK YOU!" ahhhhhh the joy of excitement. Very possible that this was the best show I've ever been to, scratch that, yes this is the best show I've been to and The Unseen made it just that great. Next up were the Dropkick Murphy's.

"for boston, for boston..." This was after a long boring introduction where all the skins in the crowd were excited by listening to the recorded music while they lowered the bands big as fuck banner. They weren't that bad, but not nearly as great as The Unseen were. Pit was fun, mostly just the big muscularly gargantuously sized oi skins there. I knew most every song they played at this show besides the new ones and the ones I han't heard before.

So it was worth the 15 bucks.

Then the hot punk chicks there made it that much better, especially the little one wearing all black and having the, I guess it could be a devil-hawk? I dunno, 'twas like a devil lock in the front with a mohawk. Well, anyway, she was very sexy indeed.

Oh speaking of girls, I met this cool one the other day at school. We didn't really introduce ourselves to one another, but had that kind of "elevator conversation" I guess. I told her I liked her hair ('twas black with some blue flail kinda stuffs....haha, don't know how to describe it.) And felt like a moron for saying it how I said it so I kinda jus' sat there as she read her book. Then when she got up to leave she saw a lizard by this tree and was all happy about it and I got up to look and that was about it.

Hm, so I have Death And Dying tomorrow at TVI Main Campus. Hopefully it'll be less boring...I finally got my book in today so I'll be able to use that, hm, we'll see. Then after school, no work, so I'll be able to do all my math homework (which I need to do all of the assignments still in order to be ready for the quiz. But, on the bright side, all of it is the easiest stuff in the world. Hopefully that won't take me too long. Then I have to read up to chapter two in Accounting and Psych and Film and probably will for Death And Dying. Tomorrow is jam packed full of work, woooo.

Tuesday night I had work, and went to Fudd 2 (by the airport, not my normal restaurant) to help them work. Saw Nazario again (manager from the our store who was transferred there) and met a guy who was workin' on the floor named Travis and the dishwasher Efrain. Those two guys were pretty damn cool. I worked on the floor from 5-close there and ended up makin' 23 bucks in tips which was really nice, I was proud of myself.

What else? Hm, got stoned with Randy, Shawn (both from work) and Kevin (Shawn's brother) on Tuesday. First time I used a hooka (sp?). And I've started thinkin' that I'm gonna cut back on the smoking. I like drinking far more and I do it far less, so I should smoke less then I drink. Yes, that's what I'll do. Also had my first experience on the freeway on Tuesday (i think it was...) as well as my first experience with hydroplaning. That was fun, the whole trying to stop before the light, then sliding into the intersection with a red light, and then just deciding to run the light. How great that was, luckily the guy (who would have t-boned me) had stopped.

I also think that I want to learn how to play drums/guitar/etc so that I can join/form a band just to play the song Figaro by Rossini. That old classical song that everyone knows, I think it's on the beginning of Mrs. Doubtfire. Good stuff. Yes, a faster version of the song with raspy smoker like vocals. I wonder how that would turn out....we'll see.

I think that's it. Yay.

/me finished while listening to...The Dismemberment Plan - You Are Invited

Woocha, so I had school today. Weirdest thing ever happened...Last night my radio was "restarted" where it needed the clock re-set and stations and all that stuff. So I fixed that up, but didn't make the right time, so now it's a good 4 and a half hours ahead. This morning I woke up, and saw 7 o'clock on my bedside alarm clock bed and reset it to 8 so I could get another hour of sleep. I lay my head down and in about half an hour I wake up, look at my radio which is displaying 12:03, and just lay back in disappointment with myself. Then I look at the alarm clock, and it has 7:30. So I messed with that clock fer a little bit until I remember'd how stupid I am. Then I got ready and went to school.

Monique was in math class today, and after a long boring period of figuring out how to find the slopes in equations (all the shit I've learned in the past year or so) I offered her a ride to her car. Considering I was parked right out the front door and she had parked in the dirt lot which is a good city block away. So I gave her a ride over to her car, and she got out and said "well, I guess I'll seeya monday" so I ask, pretty casually I think, "are you doing anything on friday?" She says no, but that she probly can't because she has a boyfriend and he'd freak if she were to do summ with a friend unless he were to go too. Oh well.

And now it's 5 o'clock, Kyle is eating dinner at 5:30 after doin' his homework right now, then we'll do something for an hour or something maybe. After that (around 8:15) I'm gonna be goin' down to Hobby Lobby (Kyle and Megan's place of work) to meet Megan in order to go to the show tonight. That show, The Unseen and the Dropkick Murphy's. I might be takin' Kyle (differn't one) as well if he decides he wants to go or not. Then, I shall sleep and wake up around 10 to get ready for work at 11 tomorrow morning.

Oh yeah, yesterday I drove on the freeway/highway whatever fer the first time. First time in the rain, oh that's a way to start huh. On the way back home on a sidestreet I was driving up to a light, so I tried to slow my car down, nothin' happened, then my breaks started to work and i slid into the middle of the intersection so I just said fuck it and drove through. That was fun.

13.41223% - Geekish Tendencies

http://www.innergeek.us/geek.html

WHAT WHAT! I'm like, non-geeky. So all you guys out there callin' me a geek, shut your FACE! So I ended up goin' bowlin' with the two Kyle's (whom I don't want to link pictures cuz I'm tired) and then went to some park and got stoned a lil bit, then went to Chili's and pissed the waitress chick off. Chili's was actually IHOP and not Chili's...Yeah, so that was cool, then we came to my house, they left, and now I'm gonna go to bed so I can wake up in time tomorrow morning for the guys to fix my wheel. We'll see how that goes. GOOD LUCK ALEX!

I RAN INTO A FUCKING CURB. And drove the fuck over it and ended up popping my left tire. I hate McDonalds.

Went to school this morning, Psych 299 Death And Dying, and so far it's boring. Too bad, maybe it was just that it was an introduction class day or something...Who knows. Then I finished with that and drove back, stopped at work to get my paycheck and gave Brett his cd's that I burnt fer him yesterday. Came from that and was looking for a fast food place to have a nice little snack, so I get to McDonalds (first choice...) and decide not to go all the way outta my way to go to Carl's Jr. I really should have though. Got to Mc E Dee's and stood there in line, the cashier looked at me kinda weird (duh...) then finished taking this chick's order. After she got hers all finished she took the old guys order who was behind me, cutter. So I look at her and make the whole "what the fuck are you doing you stupid ass bitch" kind of look and she says, oh I'm sorry, and finishes takin' the old guys' order. Then she takes mine, gets my food, and ends up givin' me a big ass cup of soda and an apple pie free fer waiting there. So, I go back to my car and throw the food in then sit down and throw my cup between my legs (since I don't have cup holders). I'm not used to driving like that, so I took it outta my legs and took a sip, then held it as my turn came up and turned usin' my right arm and with a cup in my left hand. So needless to say I completely screw up and hit the curb on the opposite side of the road, AND drive all the way up on top of it. I sit there fer a second like an idiot and hold up traffic. Then I put my car in reverse, drive off the curb and go and park. Look at the front of the car to see how bad it was, not bad, then look down and see the flat tire...SHIT! So I go to the passenger door, open it, call my stepdad and pick up the soda (which i threw into the passenger seat to get myself off the curb) and take a sip of it. Told Rick, my stepdad, that I did this and he comes down. I throw my soda against the wall and get the tire and tire jack outta the back. We put on the spare, then come back home.

So tomorrow, I've gotta go down and get a new tire...damn it. Oh, I also started College the other day. Woo, so far it rules. Tuesday was abnormal psych and film, wed was accounting 101a, then math 120, and today it was death and dying. The best class is abnormal psych and film, then math. Math only because the hottest chick I've seen on either campus digs me (i think...), what what! Yeah, she sat next to me when most of the seats were empty and said that she saw me earlier and was gonna talk to me then, but din't because I was sittin' in my car. Hey, it works. So I think Monday I'll ask her fer her number and ask to go out and such shat. That's been about all that's been goin' on, plus work of course. Next Wednesday is The Unseen and Dropkick Murphy's, w00t! As for now, I'm gonna get started on some homework.